Sense of accomplishment comes from doing what you know to be right, regardless of their difficulty.
I am now sitting back, drinking a Stewart's root beer(4 for a buck! how do you pass that up?), after making and eating dinner. My hard accomplishment of the day.
It's been a rather quite day. Church in the morning, nap in the afternoon, dinner in the evening. I have religion homework that I should do but, in true spirit of this whole weekend, I am putting it off. I've decided that either I've become trunky way too early for this semester or it hasn't worn off yet from last semester. Luckily my school load isn't too much. Maybe that's a bad thing, no drive to get my rear in gear. But I am pulling it off.
Today I have achieved the peak of my annoyance with my roommates. Now let's put this in relevancy, in alll fairness I am not that annoyed with them. I think they are pretty cool, but it is so blatantly obvious that they just got out of high school that it's pathetic sometimes. I don't like the idea but it's bugging me that I may have to play mom. I'd rather take the Drill Sergeant approach. But I feel that would quickly lead to bad feelings in the apartment. Though I still think that leaving clothes in the bathroom is a I'm-not-ready-to-be-an-adult show of character. (I have a feeling that I could be pegged on this one sometimes, but it's college, at least I don't do it here!) But they are still pretty cool kids, just need some life experience.
I went and saw Vocal Point yesterday. Absolutely fantastic. I loved it. Even though I couldn't find a date! (I tried all week) I wish they would come more often.
I'm reading a book on combat. the psychological and physiological effects on the body from combat. I find it rather interesting. He talks about how the intense fear that comes from high-stress situations makes us lose our fine motor skills. That is why training is so important. When something high stress happens you fall back into instincts. An example he shared is that, as families, you should unplug the phone and practice dialing 911 with your kids because in a situation where someone is scared they will forget what to do if they have not practiced it. He said to do this once a year. That way when someone is super scared they can react automatically and dial 911.
I would love to go to Europe right now. A good walk in the city of Colmar in eastern France or Bienne, a half german, half french city in Switzerland. I loved it in the winter time there. I really need to go back.
Well, I am going to enjoy the rest of my evening.

Let us not pity...

Well, here I am, after a long absence.
I figure a major reason I miss being full time in my job is that it gives me the ability to concentrate. particularly not on dating. I don't know why it's been on my mind so much. It's driving me up a wall. both because I feel a little highschoolish about it and because i seem to have luck in all the wrong places. I would like it to just be smooth.
One girl is the current focus. and I don't like it. it's just a pain in the teepee. and I'd rather not deal with it. I've been tempted to just talk to her about it but that would probably be awkward. i have a hard time just letting things pan out. I'd rather establish what's going on. saves time and effort. I also am wondering about what to do with some other girls that apparently really like me. I don't know what to say to them. and it's annoying. first because I just don't feel the same and secondly because I feel like I'm in their shoes with someone else. which is more humiliating than anything. all this is in light of the fact that there is a girl that I get along with exceptionally well and who would date me(if the time was right) but, for some reason, I don't see it working out right now. which continues to leave me in a pickle.
I figure the only reason I bother with this so much is because school isn't really holding my attention very well. call it a small form of ADD. the military did wonders, I never had much time to think and I did love it so it allowed me to concentrate. School has yet to do that. I'm just glad I don't have school tomorrow. I just need a balance. I need a change of pace. something to keep me going I guess. I have no idea how I am going to endure two more years up here. *disclaimer* it is rather late so you are reading me at my pinnacle of rants.
I hate the commercials on pandora. sell outs.
on a better note I like all of my classes! that is much better than last semester. I hope it stays that way. I would like to have a good semester up here.
well, I'm super tired and i will prolly have more upsetting dreams. I've been having some latley. last night was a pitched battle in Iraq. I never like killing in a dream. it seems way too real. ugh, not excited for tomorrow.
I do have some things to say on moral discipline. I really think that this is important. regardless of what you want you should have a moral compass. this will lead to more happiness than doing what ever willy-nilly will ever do. A consecrated life is what I need to strive for.