The Sword of Justice

I read something from a friend of mine that made me cringe. She is dealing with some retardedness and I am surprised at people for some of their reactions to what she wrote.
No one should ever be treated the way she is by some people. People need a wake up call every once in a while.

I met my friend some time ago while I was attending education week. For some reason I can still remember exactly how she looked and what she wore. Yeah, I know. Random. But it's true. She left quite the impression on me, enough that I had a crush on her for the better part of two years. She doesn't know this and it makes me laugh sometimes. But recently, after not seeing her for a long time, she showed up again. This time it was by phone and I was quite surprised. The circumstances in which that was in wasn't the happy-est(spelling???) but I thoroughly enjoyed talking to her. This started a string of phone conversations while I was in training that I looked forward to. It was so nice to talk to someone that not only shared values but interests so I didn't run out of things to say in 20 minutes. I really appreciated this line of support though she may not have realized how much it helped. She is very up front about things and she has a great outlook on life and strives to keep the Lord close. ((I just got a text from her saying she is coming this Saturday, random. she once said that when she was about to talk to me on the phone for the first time she felt a little nervous. I think now I reciprocate the feeling. Weird.))
In any case, I read something that she had written about and that is what caused me to write this. She is dealing with a some bums in her life. Man is responsible for his standing before God, family, and country. No one cannot consider himself a true man (or woman) who does not strive for this.
I know it isn't my responsibility to make everything all right but I do wish there is something I could do, in return for her help to me while I was away.

I hope that someday people will come to know of the peace that comes from following Jesus Christ. It will rid this world of alot of unnecessary pain.

BYU-Idaho

This trip back up to Rexburg has been very interesting. Yesterday was rather cloudy and depressing. I found that most of the day I was wondering why I came up and why I was coming back here. I felt so outside of everything and like I was looking in from the outside (maybe it didn't help that I was sleeping in my car on the outskirts of town haha!) But today has been much better, and the sun is out. I realized that my experience in the Army has changed me beyond return and that I will have to incorporate that into my life. This, I believe, will have an effect on how I view BYU-I for now on but I hope that it enhances the experience instead of destroying it. It is fun to see some old faces and it's interesting to see what emotions return with this place. I was at my sister's old apartment building today and I half expected her and her roommates to come out. It'll will be great when she gets back up here.
The construction has changed alot of stuff. It's really weird to see what has changed. Some of it is pretty cool. Other stuff, such as city permits to park on the friggin street qualifies and retardedness, in all it's glory. They do have this really big and new food court area that I hear is great but costs an arm and a leg. I may try it tonight.

So I will sit here in the Library, in my favorite spot and just enjoy the day. It is odd but this spot in the Library in the late afternoon or early evening is very relaxing for me. It's one of the few places I feel that I can just sit and enjoy happiness inside me. People say that happiness is a choice and while I agree to an extent, there are some things in this world that bring people happiness.


Otherwise God would have not made a beautiful world.

The Peace of the Mountains

I've been up in Mantua for the past few days and it has been great. The first day was absoluelty gorgeous. The sun was out and green covered the mountains like a soft blanket. I've really enjoyed the time here and the peace that just comes. I really need to come up more often.
Prolly one of the activities up here that I've enjoyed was having some ATVs up here. That was alot of fun. A few of us went out today and I got really muddy. That is a sign of a good go. My next stop will be Rexburg. I have to say it will be interesting to say the least. I wonder what I will think of the place and the people that I seel. I believe that if I had gone up right when I got home I would have wanted to leave. There are a few people I'm really excited to see. Others that I don't want to see. And one that I may want to run into.
I just read an article of part of the process to transport fallen soldiers home. I was somewhat sombered by it. I have alot of respect for those who work around the clock to bring home the fallen.

I love chocolate ice cream

I wonder where is the line between venting frustration about someone and attacking someone unrighteously. I have been talking alot about one individual in particular that drives me up the wall and I wonder if telling the story over and over again to people is the right thing. I wouldn't say it to their face because I don't believe they could take it but I wonder if I overstepped my bounds by talking about it so much. Should we just let them continue to be a bother and not say anything to anybody about it? or do we vent it to others so we don't bust our lid and let them know, in a not so calm way, that they are retarded? Maybe someday I will know when to speak and when not to speak. I choose avoiding this person for the time being.